Disappointments Make You....

So..... First & Foremost let me thank everybody who helped me get thru these past two weeks. I don't wanna do roll call cause I smoke shrooms & I know if I miss anybody I will get chewed out. I love you all! Like really!!

But I told you guys that Im really on a whole other level on my mind with facing my fears, doing bogus shit, competing with myself, and trying to lap myself. Im going to continue to compete with myself no matter how bogus it seems...

So for the past week I really lost my marbles with this quest to be one of the greats. I've been under a major competition, and interview process for a job in Tokyo working as a store manager for Uniqlo. They are opening a new store in NY, but I would've had to go Tokyo for training. I know you guys are like dam young you just got to NY. Yep! Thats true but we gotta constantly challenge ourselves to do the unthinkable. I want to learn from greats & be great! Thats all! I would've been gone for 6 months living downtown Tokyo then back to NY. Yep I was gonna leave in November and be gone til April..

So yesterday I had the interview, I did exceptionally well. My homies Kia, Alison, & Jason styled me. Thanx guys. I was super fly! LOL!! Went into the interview prayed up, Thanx Moms, Zay Jennifer, Ash & everybody else who really prayed for me. Man it was a tough one. First time doing a group interview, and I was in the interview room with some heavy hitters. Folks who graduated from top colleges in the countyr with multiple degrees, but I was the most retail & business experienced. The interviewers even said it. I left the interview feeling good, & all. But I also didn't have any feelings..

To say the least I woke up to the iPhone & the email read "were sorry but we can't offer you employment for the position at this time" I was blown, Im talking like really blown immediately texted those who helped & prayed for me. They all gave some amazing words. Thanx guys!

Went to laptop, and got busy with some BLACK Collection work. Gotta keep the dream going. Things are really looking up for us. Just not doing a lot of talking. You guys shall see soon.

Got a text & a email from two of my fav people. My big bro Tab & my babes. Alison that were soooo simple but made the day and really changed my perspective immediately.

Tab's said: Keep pushing young! The future holds so much. You will find what's meant or eventually take it.

Alison's said: But seriously don't be discouraged. I know you're dissapointed but it's all a chain of events that leads to something greater, you just can't see the full timeline right now cause you're in the current moment.

Im writing this to myself & for myself. But I'm sure there's somebody who really want to be great, and has dealt with a disappointment recently that will read this.

Fret not, God has some amazing stuff coming your way. Hold on to your dreams like your life depends on it. You will look back & say I had to go through that to get to this..

But the end result & reward is going to be soooo great! Keep the faith! Dream big & live like everyday is your last! God is bigger than any man of this Earth...

Let no man tell you what you can or cant do & slowly remove yourself from those who think small... We can win! We will win!!