Sunday, October 24, 2010

Introduction: The Ambiguous Hierarchy

So the past few weeks I guess you can say I’ve been going through my NY initiation process if you will. My homie Kia hooked me up with a temp job that I am so grateful for so I’ve been working retail, getting the S/S 11 Line straight, and a host of other big ideas that I rather not put out in the universe just yet. I would like them to manifest first. To say the least your man is tired, and my feet hurt. LOL! It’s all good though! I’m blessed through all the trials.

So the other day as I stood at the front of the store being the token black boy, the conversation my big brother/mentor Delano (I call him that with pride because he is the true example of risk tasker, not that part-time shit everybody says they are) & I always have hit me. A conversation I also had with my homie Jason hit me along with some other crazy thoughts of mine which sparked me to write this blogpost. Excuse my vulgarity or blame my Uncle Cheese for teaching me all the curse words I use at age 3 besides God knows my heart.

I often hold back what I really want to say, and censor myself from certain things worrying about how people will take my thoughts but fuck that, I can no longer let me hold me from being me. Let’s get into it. These are my JUST ideas, and opinions. I hope we can apply this somewhere in our lives.


Read The Ambiguous Hierarchy Below

“The Ambiguous Hierarchy”

The Ambiguous Hierarchy”

The poor citizens discover, validate, and spark the ideas of the world. The middle class citizens have the few bucks of disposable income to get the ideas recognized. But unfortunately the wealthy, and rich are the only ones who really benefit from the entire cycle.

Why??? Two words: Fear & Exposure.

People who live in fear say stuff like this: I can’t take off because I have to make enough to pay my car note, or pay my credit bill. You know the ole slave mentality shit. Go be a good worker, and get compensated the crumbs aka the good salaries we think are good until we look at the bottom line of the multi-millionaire companies, or maybe we don’t care to slave? We haven’t given ourselves a chance to discover our God given talents busy working to be flawless on the job of the persons business who followed their dreams. Sucks huh?

So here’s what they left us with. You work Monday through Friday you get off early that’s like your “good job nigga pass” leave the cotton field. We go straight to happy hour to celebrate our liberation of oppression for a day and a half. Get drunk as fuck, spend PROBABLY 35% our check, were hungover on Saturday morning, so we wash clothes, grocery shop, and Sunday rest up watching other sports figures, or celebs get paid, iron our clothes and get ready for the next whole week of “fuck you nigga, get back in the cotton field”, only this time were not picking cotton, it’s answering phones, hanging Halloween costumes, making copies, getting coffee, and the cycle continues forever.

People who haven’t been exposed say shit like this: “we can’t come up, it’s too hard, and what else can I do besides be a rapper or baller. My folks didn’t leave me anything, or how about “why are you moving” you’re maintaining & doing just fine here. Wrong answers. It’s unfortunate that we don’t get a chance to see outside of our environment, and were stuck. FOREVER.

This week I found myself replaying the convos between Delano, and I in my head. “There’s a fine line between complaining/being grateful, and accepting blessings". What’s interesting is that God wants more for us, he wants us to step into new challenges all we have to do is ask. It’s crazy I can talk about God, and also use profanity in the same blogpost huh??? Find me somebody that's perfect. It’s crazy when you just stop asking God for more. That’s when you die.

I found myself just laughing at work, like out loud. Crazy I am. My managers are the most stupid assholes ever. One is an immigrant who probably can’t write his fucking ABC’s and the other is just dumb. I could out think them both and their entire families together in my sleep. Yet I’m taking orders from them. It taught me something priceless, and had I got the job and moved to Tokyo, I wouldn’t have learned this life-changing lesson.

Let me close: I hope somebody whomever reads this will be touched by this somehow: “When you operate in disbelief you delay your blessing”. When you say one thing that your going to do keep the fire behind it, and just do it. Stop doubting yourself, and stand firm.

Can I be the crazy one to question and challenge the statement that I heard from so many greats including Denzel Washington, etc. “do what gotta do so you can do what wanna do”. LET ME FOREVER CHANGE THAT: “DO WHAT WANNA DO, AND YOU WILL NEVER BE AT MERCY TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO”. Think on that one….

There’s going to come a time in your life when you decide to completely follow your guts, and hold onto your balls, whether your flourish, or crash & burn while holding them. We all are born with a God given talent, and I left DC to use mine here in NY, and spread it throughout the world, and that’s what I’m going to do. Follow my passions, and I will never allow temporary hard times, or shortcomings to ever lessen my self-worth, knowledge, and special gift. Each of us have giftst. Find Yours!!

God will break you all the way until you realize your purpose. If you can’t see it, he will make you feel it (that’s why I haven’t been able to walk regularly in two days from doing 11 hour days on my feet all week).

God and I have come to an agreement, and there’s nothing like getting, and understanding a message that I’ve been searching for 26 years.

Fear nothing, be willing to starve like literally, sacrifice it all, lose it all, lose friendships, relationships, and be stripped down to the very bottom as I have experience each of these. Trust yourself, and listen to no one, but that inner voice inside of YOU. You will rise when it's YOUR TIME, that God has for you! But he is waiting on YOU.

The dash between your birth year, and your death year is the only thing that matters.

GO NOW & NEVER RETURN!!

Monday, October 4, 2010